This is a story about today.
So you’re a patient. You’ve been waiting a long, long time. This place never gets better. Even though this is “your appointment” and “your day”, despite knowing that the doctors are so, so nice — wonderful, really – you find yourself cringing at the unmistakable “busy” in the air.
We’re two hours behind schedule, you hear someone whisper from behind a pulled curtain, and you start to feel foolish.
Maybe you shouldn’t ask this question, you think. Maybe you need to do some more research…
Which is ridiculous, since research is all you’ve been doing! Even though you’ve been saving this question, carefully Google-searching, bookmarking, even scanning scholarly articles in foreign journals about the wrong gender and the wrong age bracket.
The unease unclenches and clenches again like a fist in your stomach.
Finally, they come in and probe, and smile, and reassure – doing their job you know — but still you don’t ask the question.
Why not?
You wonder how they would feel about the anxiety that has led you to Google. You wonder if what you know could possibly stack up against what they know.
Well, you really haven’t looked at everything… Maybe the forums have something to say about it. Try again next month?
So you go home. Your transport is here anyway. It’s always on time. And so is the internet.
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Today, a question was not asked.
Problem is, today could be any day.
We who work in health care may still be only a small slice of people’s lives — and I sincerely hope that their relationships with us will never define who they are — but our advice is shockingly weighty. It’s sometimes even alive, if you can imagine that.
Patients take it home with them. And it probably does live with them.
Therefore, I am disappointed when a question is not asked.
I am not sure if this disappointment has a direction or whether it is only a kind of haze – suspended, obscuring, and not quite right. But I think it means something.
It means that we have built fences. Psychological fences. We are told that good fences make good neighbours, but I for one don’t want to talk to people through fences. When we erect too many fences, at some point somebody ends up taking the path of least resistance. Like avoiding communication and seeking out answers on the internet.
A path that perhaps provides short-term relief but eventually pretty much leads to more speculation, uncertainty, anxiety.
(Image: Makz on Flickr)
I’m not saying the internet is evil. Of course not. I’m a huge advocate of patient empowerment and e-patients. And online research and tools most certainly can help inform patient decisions, as well as provide a certain level of community and emotional support.
I just, at times, become wary of curiosity unchecked. I hope that no matter what they discover in their research – no matter how busy and efficiency-obsessed health care workers may look on a particular day – that patients will continue to feel comfortable discussing their online findings with us.
To give a related example, this brings to mind my recent post on Twitter + Group Medical Visits. There, several readers brought up the utility of a physician being aware of Twitter trending topics within the group between visits, so that they can be further discussed at the next Group Visit with input from a medical professional. So while it’s excellent to have more conversation overall, I hope that internet conversations will not be disjoint from in-person conversations between doctor and patient.
Ask the question.
If the description of your prescribed drug in a paper from Medline is making you feel nervous, speak up. If your email list of fellow (insert condition here) patients stumbles upon an interesting concern, let us know.
It’s really not “patient empowerment” if you feel powerless.